Never A Wish

So I've blogged off and on through various sites over the years and most recently John's blog. However I realized apart from John's blog, I really haven't kept a record of my thoughts, feelings, etc very regularly as I've been going through probably the most life changing period of my life, med school, pregnancy, new baby, graduation, intern year.
I struggled a good deal trying to keep a balance the last year and a half, so exhausted from a baby that didn't sleep and then starting intern year, that I often felt I was just surviving life, and not really living it. I've been working on that over the past few months with a good bit of success. The other day I had the afternoon off, maybe I was post call, either way, I was picking John up a little early and we were laughing in the car, looking at the cows and the trees. It was my favorite time of day, late afternoon in late summer/early fall when the air is crisp and casts a golden hue on everything. I was listening to a cheesey but favorite CD with some instrumental music on it, and a son that reminds me of my time in Kenya came on. We passed a field with the golden air, birds flying, my precious son talking and laughing and it hit me...I was THERE. In the moment, really experiencing that beautiful, simple, peaceful moment, really living my life.
The title for this blog comes from another cheesey song I like and feel like relates a little to that moment and my quest to live life...A Hundres Years by Five for Fighting

I'm 15 for a moment Caught in between 10 and 20 And I'm just dreaming Counting the ways to where you are I'm 22 for a moment She feels better than ever And we're on fire Making our way back from Mars 15 there's still time for you Time to buy and time to lose 15, there's never a wish better than this When you only got 100 years to live I'm 33 for a moment Still the man, but you see I'm a they A kid on the way A family on my mind I'm 45 for a moment The sea is high And I'm heading into a crisis Chasing the years of my life 15 there's still time for you Time to buy, Time to lose yourself Within a morning star 15 I'm all right with you 15, there's never a wish better than this When you only got 100 years to live Half time goes by Suddenly you're wise Another blink of an eye 67 is gone The sun is getting high We're moving on... I'm 99 for a moment Dying for just another moment And I'm just dreaming Counting the ways to where you are 15 there's still time for you 22 I feel her too 33 you're on your way Every day's a new day... 15 there's still time for you Time to buy and time to choose Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this When you only got 100 years to live